I like the band

The song

And the video

David Ryan Harris is part of John Mayer’s Tour Band.

“The world has lost a visionary. And there may be no greater tribute to Steve’s success than the fact that much of the world learned of his passing on a device he invented.”
-Pres. Barack Obama

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Not happy at all.

A Pure Moment

March 15, 2008

When was the last time you had a truly pure moment? The simple order of you, the enjoyment, the happiness, the end.

Without that nagging arithmetic of what the moment must look like to others, what it might read like tomorrow, and if it bears any significance in the long term…

When was the last time you heard the voice in your head over all the noise?

Simple happiness is at a premium… and I can’t think of anything more valuable I want to own right now…

Self consciousness is toxic… And it’s everywhere…

I have not learned anything from fame and success that I wouldn’t have wanted life to teach me without it…

From Kyoto, in the rain…

(by JM)

My job – yeah it sucks because of just one person, but then again, I am thankful. It’s stable, it’s a huge multi-national company, the pay’s just right, the entire work is something I know, I have a wonderful boss, great colleagues, plus, it’s just 10 minutes away from my house! I feel the pressure too much and I have to change the way I cope. So it’s just a matter of changing my perspective. Over-all, I have a great job, I just have to remind myself everyday, when I start thinking of punching someone’s face.

My home – the past few days, I have been visiting my mom’s room every morning just to share with her the stress I’m feeling about work… and you know what’s surprising? Her full support is so evident. She knows what I’m going through and every time I have stories for her, it’s as if she is always with me, 24 hours a day – she has her opinions and she reacts as if she knows the people I talk about. Her room has become a sanctuary for me, the warmth of her love and the cool air that her air conditioner emits make it one of my favorite places when I’m feeling down. When I had difficulty in deciding about my career, my mom told me, “Go to papa and ask him”. So I did, and the last thing he told me was that if I wasn’t sure about the steps I’m going to take, then I should stay. It was those words that made me pause for a bit and choose… and believe it or not, I realized that my choice was the best I’ve ever made.

My friends – I have 3 best friends. Jude, Gladys and Kay. We normally chat via Twitter, and I believe that through this site, we became accessible to each other. We know what’s going on with each others’ lives, we bond as much as we can and we have a certain relationship that will never be severed. Jude has been very patient with me, while she is a woman with few words, what she says always makes sense. Gladys and I have been through a lot – lost loves, death, shitty jobs – we even fought for sometime, and given all those, I know I could always count on her. Kay, oh Kay, she’s my BFF within that group. I love talking to her, she gives me strength and she always make me realize that I am good person – she never fails to tell me that. My eternal dive buddy, underwater and on surface, I know she will not let anything bad happen to me. I miss her everyday, really. I admire these women, they amaze me on how they were able to get through the crises that have come their way.

My Dan – yup, he’s mine. Everyday, I look at him and I tell myself, girl, you are such a lucky bitch. I’ve known him for years and it was only last year that he really came into my life. He’s perfect, a gentleman, very intelligent, strong, sweet, talented, handsome, athletic and successful… he is someone I look up to. He is everything. For months, he never failed to listen to me when I rant about work and he gave me advices that only he could give because he knows me more than anybody. He’s been very patient and caring, that without him, I’m not sure about the level of insanity I’ll be in right now. My personal trainer to my diva attitude (move over, Paris Hilton), he always makes sure (ok, encourages me) that I live a healthy life because he once said, “I want you and I to be together for a long time.” I have nothing bad to say about him. We may have ups and downs, but the one thing I like is that we experience those together. His great love for his family makes me feel secure and I know I will have a good future with him. Whattaguy. WHAT. A. GUY.

Girl, you’re such a lucky bitch.

See? I am thankful, I really am. I will never change anything because this life I have is one that I am willing to live during my entire lifetime.

Thank you, God, for giving me this.

Then last Friday, I was again made to choose, but this time, I had a deadline. And I chose to stay. Amidst the hardships, I decided to face my challenges and be the bigger person. After speaking with friends, family and Dan, I came to a conclusion, when it doubt about the change, stay.

At first I thought, hmmm maybe I just didn’t want to rock my now-a-little-bit stable life. But now, as of this very moment, I know that I decided to continue on to show to myself that I can do it. This will give me time to shine. To restore. To fight. To become a better person.

I chose to stay to be reborn.