Category Archives: Motherhood

an anxious mother

Two things that made me anxious recently:

1. My daughter’s first plane ride

2. My daughter’s first day in school

A backgrounder: my child wreaks havoc when she is in an unfamiliar place, in an unfamiliar situation.

So for her first plane ride, the ever paranoid mama,  I made sure that we were prepared. We brought her favorite toys (Moana, Merida and Hei Hei dolls), her favorite food (M&Ms), her books, her videos (she is device-free, but for this trip, I made sure I had Moana, Frozen, Hanson’s new music vid, and Brave in my phone), and her trusty binky in our carry-on.  For every cry, tantrum, shout.. we had something for her.

But as soon as we got to the airport, she was awed by how big airplanes were, she was excited to ride one of those giant machines.  While waiting for boarding, she slept so she wasn’t too fuzzy. Then during take-off, she laughed with glee… We only had to get her Merida doll from the bag she wanted toy strapped on her seat.

We went to Boracay for a few days, and I must say, this was the best ever trip we have ever had as a family. We had our well-behaved baby who loved the sea and breeze, and she would easily fall asleep when we rested.

She really is a child of the ocean.


sand castle

On our way home, weather was really bad so there was strong turbulence, and top that, we weren’t able to land on the pilot’s first attempt. Imagine my anxiety and fear building up. But Emma, the best daughter in town… had a great time. Although she was pretty scared of the rain that she could see outside the window… so we had to turn on the device for some dose of Brave.

Now if only she can sit still when she gets her photo taken for her passport (a failed attempt last December that’s why we ended up going on a domestic trip this year).

Yesterday was her trial class in this preschool near where we live.  I made sure she had her snacks, she’s dressed appropriately, and that her mom and dad were there the entire time. I was stressed!

But, again, what a trooper. while she screamed when she didn’t see any of us in the room, she seemed to have a good time.

Emma Eating

At home, we couldn’t make her eat… but in school, look. Pointing up

She participated, made friends and played.



Regular school starts in a week.

My husband and I had a moment yesterday, when we realized that we now have a big girl at home. Someone who doesn’t just like being with mommy and daddy. Someone who wants to experience new things and meet new people.

Such a big girl.


Baby Carrying

As what I have mentioned in my last post (which was more than a year ago…) with the new baby, I had to make sure that I can walk around and do stuff even if I am with her and that I had her stuff. Last year, I didn’t have a nanny, so if Emma was not in my mom’s house during work days, she was always attached to me.

So I got to experiment and find the best baby carriers in town.



One her first month, since her head and back were not strong yet, I tried out the ring sling. I got one from Mamaway and you know, my back and my arms were very grateful!


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I went to the zoo wearing this and it was great. 

However, the downside was it was hard to assemble. And I had to do adjustments often in order to make sure it’s snug.



When Emma turned 1 month, and could be carried ala kangaroo, I used the K’Tan, which was a gift from one of my girlfriends. It was even cozier than the ring sling, and very easy to use.  I got the Breeze variant so that Emma will not feel too warm inside.


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Another reason why I love it? It’s as if Emma was hugging me the entire time.


When she got a little bigger, I made her face in front so that she can explore the world with me.



When the Baby Bjorn that we ordered from the US arrived, it was time for papa to wear our baby, and he had a blast.


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It was even easier than the K’Tan. And it’s right for my husband as well. From then on,  going to the mall was easy. No need to cramp ourselves in the mall elevator with the stroller.


Overall, I can’t really pick a favorite carrier. Because in every stage of a baby’s life, there was one that will serve its purpose.  But one thing I can say is that wearing a baby is one of the best things in the world.

Mama Bag

Since I would carry my baby , along with some other stuff like her bottle and diapers… I decided to use a backpack as my purse. I can actually wear her (baby wearing, another topic), and place everything, including my wallet in a small backpack.

My choice is the Herschel Liberty Ware

It’s a bit pricey here in Manila, but it serves its purpose.


Saw this article in Yahoo.

It’s about having a C-Section and being proud of it. Powerful read.

I am actually surprised that there are people who feel that having a C-Section is not actually giving birth. What or who gave them that idea? Obviously, they are uninformed. What they don’t know is that CS Mothers went through this feeling of fear, uncertainty and anxiety – What if I fall asleep and miss my baby’s first cry? What if I don’t wake up… ever? What if there will be complications? Will my husband be ok? Will my baby be able to endure the sudden change of environment? How will I be able to hold my baby with the painful scar? Will my baby be ok if I don’t survive?

I had a C-Section – It doesn’t mean I am less of a Mother. I gave birth to a beautiful baby whom I love more than my life. I provide, I take care, I nurture. And that makes me a Mom.

Mama Musings

After giving birth, I realized that I was not “briefed” on everything. So I decided to share my daily learnings via this Tumblr site.




Go check it out.