dear scared of revolving doors,
i think i’m in love with this guy. it’s not just a crush as what i have been mentioning, it’s this feeling that is not unrequited, this is something that is slowly being returned back to me because the last time i saw him, he was so nice, accommodating, and flirty (oh, it can be the jack daniels, but i think he likes me too!)
*giggle giggle* you know what? everytime i’d see his face in magazines or on tv, i feel that he only has eyes for me, and his gaze is so hypnotic, i could imagine him kissing me, short pecks, nice special liplocks that last for about 5 minutes… he makes me giggle. i think he’s a great kisser.
sigh, i miss him. i’ve read that he’s in asia now, having some time for himself. i wanted to call him or email him, but i know that as usual he will be too busy to talk to me or to reply to my messages, so i’d just read his journal to know how he is.
ah his journal. i’m sure that some of his posts were meant for me because i can feel that he’s sending me personal messages. but if i email him about it, he never answers, maybe he wanted to be all mysterious.
anyway, scared of revolving doors, this is where i need advice on. i know that he’s into me and that he is thinking of me (then why would he send me those cryptic messages via his online journal right?) but recently, all he did was hurt me, emotionally, especially in one of his last posts. he hurt me by writing things that were definitely about me, and i didn’t like it.
i know he loves me, but is this how it should be?
he has kept his silence all throughout this fight of ours, and he hasn’t even called to apologize. i tried calling him and as usual, he never picked up. i’ve finally had enough so i began telling people about our moments (some of them were…heehee…figments of my imagination…) because i think the world needs to hear about it (and maybe, he’ll feel sentimental and finally call…)
what will i do? i am so sad, i know that we miss each other and that we love each other, but we shouldn’t be hurting this way!
is it still april fool’s day?
anyway, this is actually the easiest problem that i have ever handled…
are you sure that he feels the same way as you do? because from the looks of it, you are the only one living in your own romantic world. girl (?), i gotta be frank with you. clearly…
HE’S NOT INTO YOU. NEVER WAS, AND WILL NEVER BE.
YOU DON’T BELONG IN HIS PERSONAL SPACE, HE DOESN’T THINK ABOUT YOU, DOESN’T WRITE LENGTHY ENTRIES ABOUT YOU AND HAS NEVER SINGLED YOU OUT.
here’s what you should do: stop being so desperate and pathetic. don’t even try to talk about stuff that you think happened because no one will ever take you seriously. you need to grow up, you big ignorant baby.
sincerely, scared of revolving doors